strange decemberdays

its been a few eventful days so far in december, strange and different. with the joyful surprising visit of an old friend that was driving through sacramento in his old camero with his cousin. that would be remi and it was so fun to see a known happy face from home for a few hours!! a couple of days later my friend sabrina, my first friend from school in san francisco, came to visit. she also got married to an american and being swiss we have much of the same experience here in california. exept that they are now pregnant, but we got to share wedding pictures and long talks. absolutely wonderful and a very upliftning day. but then theres other strange feelings going through me because me grandpa on my moms side has been sick for a while and died monday afternoon. he was old, almost 90 years, and has lived a wonderful life preaching and raising five kids and being so influencial in many peoples lives. but its still strange for the people that are left, i am especially thinking about my grandma these days. but am happy for him, he is in heaven, in a much better place and it was his time to leave. its strange to be far away and for different surcumstances i won't be able to go home, which is one of the things i have to sacrifice when having my life so far away from family and friends. we'll see how long we can do this, this distance... in times like this i wish i was closer to participate more directly. so am thinking aobut my mom who lost her dad and i know my sisters and my dad and her siblings are there for her. and i support her in my way from here.
its been a good last week but strange and different in many ways. am a little sick and feel a little melancholy not in a negative way, just different. if that makes sense.
c